fierce with reality
When we open up to our brokenness, we begin the path to wholeness.
When I was younger, I used to hope that when I turned 20 and then 30 and now 50, that I would be free from getting so humiliated or feeling fearful or anxious. I thought I just needed to grow up.
I still get humiliated, fearful, and anxious. But what is different now is that while I don't particular enjoy these strong feelings, I am more okay with them because I see them as passing conditions. They are simply tools to work with. And they don't define me.
Wholeness is not perfection. Wholeness is acceptance. It is simply a willingness to look at all of it...the good, the bad, and the ugly.
When we give voice to our brokenness, we in turn let light shine on and from these places.
And who knows how this light will change our lives and illuminate the hearts of others.
As Parker Palmer says, the way to God is down.
And when we are mindful of our pain, when we hear it and can identify it as sadness, anger, jealousy, grief, whatever it may be...we see our brokenness as something to understand and not necessarily fix. We change our relationship to it. It becomes something to work with and grow from.
It becomes a portal to awakening not a pathology to treat.
Barrie Davenport in her book, Peace of Mindfulness, writes, "Don't add another layer of suffering by fretting over your suffering."
There is nothing wrong with you. You are not perfect thank goodness! But you are beautiful in your brokenness. Because you are fierce with reality.